For me, the reality of “presence” is a very important one for my journey. Whether in my relationship with Jesus, or others with skin on, the impact that presence has on my own heart is profound. I find myself regularly considering truth through the lens of presence, especially as it relates to what the Trinity speaks to me, whether in the written Word or personally. What I have come to know, day in and day out, is that I long for presence beyond my present experience. Yes, Jesus, be Emmanuel (God with Us).
Like you, I do experience it at times and in ways that defy explanation. Then there are those times that I’m found pouring my heart out without words, needing Presence to capture my fallen gaze. But answers do not always come. Many times silence reigns, both from Heaven and earth. Into that place, my questions then come about my own capacity…am I dull? Distracted? Cold? Wounded? Bitter? and the list goes on. All good questions, but not meant to be a place one should stay too long. But, some days I do stay…and in that place of broken unknown-ness, I discover a deeper longing. It’s like looking at the past-present-future reality of eternity as compared to the fragile shortness and passing of my perceived weak life (aren’t we all wounded and broken?). Some days I long for this eternity…to be present with all the other eternal beings, secure and strengthened by power beyond my own life. And yet, on other days, it feels my time here is still filled with life that needs to be lived in presence this side of heaven. A tension for sure, and one that anchors itself deep within my heart.
As I move through these shifting perspectives, I land in a place of wanting more of how I give of myself to those around me. I want to be “Present” for them, whatever that looks like. And to be sure, it changes by person and circumstance. Can I be that adaptive and sensitive? I don’t know, but am giving it all that I can.
If this echoes your own heart…let’s remember each other and be Present with one another, even when words are absent. May our paths be marked with our footprints surrounding others as we move through this dusty experience, captured by the invitation of Him who commits to us every step of the way.